A Year in Reflection

Full disclosure: I’m sitting in a closet as I type this, my three year old is watching tv and my almost six month old is scooting around me playing with shoes. I’m surrounded by things that represent a life I was supposed to have: five pairs of pumps, five blazers that never get taken out, at least ten pairs of dress pants (now all too small for my new waist), countless dresses, blouses, and skirts that haven’t been off their hangers in years, designer bags that collect nothing but dust (I could go on but I think you get the idea). All represent a life I was supposed to have. All are a tribute to the person I was supposed to be. All are very sorely contrasted by the little rugrat that’s wriggling around and babbling in some language he’s made up.

As I sit here I’m a little lost. I’m somewhere between the person I was supposed to be and the person I am: the driven career women who was climbing that corporate ladder and the stay at home mom and wife who spends her day chasing kids in leggings and loose tops since she can’t come to terms with the weight she’s put on with her recent “career” change. From networking to trying to make mom friends, from conference calls to diaper changes, from team one-on-ones to disciplining a small person who’s sass mirrors my own, from team lunches to breastfeeding—my world has changed and this closet tries to encompass the change.

2018 was a year of transition, it was my year of giving – giving my all to a job I ended up having to leave, devoting my all to a man who has ambition I can’t bring myself to get in the way of, giving everything I had to people I deemed my friends. It was the year I gave up my first house, my job, my body to grow another, my time, my dreams, and my lifestyle in an attempt to do what’s best for my family. It has been a year of lessons, a year of chaos, and a year of contrast — I have no doubt when I look back it will be a landmark year.

This time last year I was three months pregnant with my second baby, we actually announced it to the world a year ago today. I had been at Cambria for eight months and was starting to grow comfortable with my role there. We’d lived in our home for nine months and were just getting comfortable with how everything was coming together. We were content with life, in a good place with some good people.

As I sit here reflecting today I can’t help but recognize the lessons.

  1. Life Changes: You can’t help it, it’s going to change. My advice is to enjoy the moments you can and keep the negative in that perspective.
  2. Be You: There’s no use trying to be someone you’re not, you can try but it’s not going to work. If you need lists make them, if you need positive people seek them. Follow whatever your dreams are (write if you want to write, sing if you want to sing) you need to do you boo otherwise no one will know who YOU are.
  3. Most People are in it for the Gain: don’t be surprised when Cindy stops talking to you when you hit a rough patch in life, she wasn’t your real friend anyways. Not everyone you meet is like this (you’ve got your Ambers, Amys, Keairas, Kristens, and Sadies—they’re normally a minority) but a majority of people are going to focus on what you’ve done for them today or what you can do for them tomorrow not what you’ve done for them yesterday.
  4. Be Kind: give when you can. Whether it’s your time, your love, your ability to watch kids or listen. Make sure you’re there for the Amber’s in your life. When they celebrate make sure you celebrate even if it’s not a celebration season in your life, make sure you’re there for her highs as well as her lows cause let’s face it if your Amber is anything like mine you’re going to have to poke and pry to find out her lows. Also don’t make people feel like shit for things they can’t help, be mindful of the situations you put others in.
  5. Be Present: Time travel is not possible, if it were I would go back and “fix my face” when my husband told me he got the job in Alabama (the tears of despair should have been tears of happiness and excitement). I regret that moment at least once a week. Be mindful of how your reaction may make others feel and how your words and actions may hurt others. Be present in the moment and cognizant of the situation.
  6. Take Care of Yourself: if you don’t wake up tomorrow then what’s the point. You need to make sure you take a minute now and then to focus on yourself, believe me that mess is gonna be recreated as soon as you clean it, so why not leave it for an extra five minutes while you do something for yourself (I’m not saying you should just neglect life, I’m saying some things can wait, you’re mental and physical health are not on that list but folding laundry, picking up toys, and the pile of dishes in the sink are)
  7. Say No / Let Go: These go hand in hand. You need to say no soemtimes, you can’t constantly do everything/be everything for everyone. You need to be able to say no sometimes for your own sanity. Don’t go to the playdate, skip the toddler craft, ensure you’re taking care of yourself and let go of the guilt you feel as well as anyone who amplifies that guilt.

These are my major lessons from this year. These are my big takeaways from all the moments. Most importantly I learned that there is no such thing as the perfect parent. The perfect parent is the parent that is present, the one that is here and trying. It has nothing to do with clean floors, perfectly pressed clothes, or having the angel child — it is the parent that you bring to the table and consistently work to better. I have come to terms with the person I am and the person I want to be and that this new me is different than the person I imagined I would be. What has 2018 taught you? I hope it has left you better than 2017, that it taught you to be the BEST YOU, and most of all I hope that 2019 is your best year yet. See you in the new year!

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The Journey with my Feet

I’ve had these suckers for over 30 days at this point, and I want to make it clear — this is not a paid review, this is not a partnered review, there was nothing exchanged for the review you are about to read.

I went on a hunt to find something that made me feel better about my feet, they were scaly and had dead skin and calluses all over them and were just all around gross. I tried creams, I tried milk soaks, I tried scrubs, I tried everything the internet told me to do to no avail. Finally, I happened upon Mr. Pumice Ultimate Pumi Bar while scouring the pits of amazon. These guys have worked magic on my heels, they have removed all the dead skin from the first day and I am still on my first bar!

I bought a 4-pack sure that they wouldn’t withstand more than a single use, two if I was lucky — but I have been pleasantly surprised. I have used the bar multiple times a week, they seem to solve every woe I have with my feet and are not at all time-consuming to use. I just rub a little bit of my olive oil soap (yes, I said olive oil soap) onto the bar and then brush away at my feet until I feel like I have done a sufficient enough job. I will tell you that the second time I used the Mr. Pumice Bar I may have gone a little overboard and taken a little bit too much skin off but overall I have been impressed with my results. So if you are looking for a simple way to clean up your heals and make them a little softer without a ton of effort head on over to amazon and grab some of these! Let me know if they work as well for you as they did for me!

An Open Thank You

Last night I spent and hour and thirty-eight minutes on the phone with my best friend. I b******, I complained, I wallowed, I self-cared. Yesterday I discovered for the hundredth time in the eight years we’ve been friends that she is my rock. When I hit rock bottom she will be there, when I’m on cloud nine she will be there. Yesterday my best friend proved to me for the second time that no matter how far I move, how many decisions I make that she doesn’t agree with, no matter where life takes me she will be there. She is kind, she is caring, she is everything I am not and that is why she is my best friend, she completes me when I don’t know how to complete myself.

Eight years is a long time. We have been through so much together. It is twice as long as I have been married, it is 2.5 times as long as I have been a parent. She is my oldest friend, the only person who probably knows me better than I know myself, she is the person I turn to in times of crisis, in times of joy. She is the one who I rely on when I can’t rely on myself. Yesterday I understood that life never gives us more than we can handle; it gave me my Amber so that I could cope. It ran me smack into her. I hope I am half the friend she is. I hope I make her half as comfortable as she makes me. I am lucky beyond belief and I am more thankful than I know how to put into words, wherever I go I hope my path is always intertwined with yours, for without you I am less me than I am willing to admit.

This is an open thank you to all the “Amber’s” out there. It is a thank you that we forget to give on a regular basis. Thank you for being there and caring for us when we need it most. Thank you for completing us. Thank you for listening. If you have an “Amber” go ahead and send her the thank you just because, send her a link to the post, shoot her a text; just remember to thank her, to remind her that she is the peanut butter to your jelly, the Monica to your Rachel, the Cristina to your Meredith. As always

See You Later

Last Friday was a bittersweet day, it was a day of lasts in a way. We are done with our last possession in Savannah — our first home. It was a place we poured hours into, where our friends became even more family and opportunity seemed to make itself present. We painted, we nailed, we landscaped, we gave it all we had and it gave back with opportunity after opportunity. The sale of our home marked a final goodbye to a chapter of our lives that we will never forget, my first home away from home. As I sit here and remember all the different aspects of the memories we had in that house I recognize that some are sweet others are angering, yet I recognize that they all come together to make my family what it is today.

I remember the first time I walked through the doors into the big vacant house that we had just signed a ton of papers to acquire. It was intimidating, foreign, and lonely in a way. As the days passed and the space changed it became ours. The walls changed colors and began to hold our old memories, the floors were no longer bare, the hallways echoed with the sounds of memories in the making. Our family grew and bonded in ways that only adapting a space to fit your life can change you — from pulling Big J around on a scaffold so he could paint our neverending living room walls, to deciding to have another baby our home on Saint Ives Drive held so many surprises for us. We made new friends and bonded with the old, we experienced joys we could not fathom otherwise and challenges that only made us stronger.

I also remember the day I found out I was leaving, less than a year after we walked through those doors for the very first time — I was sitting on the floor in our dining room piecing together a chicken wire window frame I intended to use for all the greeting cards we had gotten from our friends and family, my husband burst through the door a wide smile on his face absolutely BEAMING and all I could feel was my heart sinking and the tears streaming down my face. As I look back on that moment I am ashamed of my behavior, of the manner in which I handled my emotions (anger, fear, betrayal), I wish I could go back and change it. I should have shared my husbands excitement, I should have shared his pride in his accomplishment, I should have….just so many things but instead I focused on the loss, the sacrifice.

The last time I walked out those doors I was six months pregnant, I was saddened by the fact that my baby would never see the first home his parents had purchased. I was lost and confused about what the future would hold, I was two days from turning 26 and I just didn’t know how I was going to handle being a stay at home mom to two boys. I was terrified, I’ll let you in on a little secret, I still am. Savannah will always have its own place in my heart, it’s the first place I acquired the titles “wife” and “mama”; it’s the place I bought my first car, my first home, and got my first job outside of retail; it’s where I learned to be a mother and a wife and where I became more me. Savannah, I sincerely hope this is not goodbye, but a see you later, from the bottom of my heart I already miss you from your squares, to your beaches, to the historical parks, and all the memories your city limits hold I can’t wait to see you again.


The Mama Bear

Sometime in college my friends nicknamed me Mama Bear, usually the youngest person in the group, I seemed to always be the one keeping track of everyone (whether you got too drunk to function, needed help with a paper at 2 am, or were having a meltdown as college students do I was there) and making sure that all was well. The nickname stuck and soon enough got applied to me at work. As an 19 year old team lead I was the youngest leader in the building and was often having performance conversations with people who were older than myself, one of my employees said that I was the “no child left behind” enforcer in the building. As life went on I saw that I was often the one who was the Mama Bear in most situations, there were exceptions but I had a real knack for being in charge.

Fast Forward to August 2018: I have a seven-week-old infant that is projectile vomiting with a belly button the size of a ripe cherry and no idea what to do. It started out as projectile vomiting every morning when he woke up and two days later he was projectile vomiting after every meal. As a concerned parent who felt that an infant might need the food that they consumed I placed a call to my pediatricians office where I was promptly told that I was overfeeding my child and that I needed to pump and only give him 3.5 oz of milk per meal, even though we had been recently visited by a stomach virus that had left most of our family debilitated. Like a good mother I quickly found my pump and began to pump while googling the likelihood of this being the issue and texting my boob guru Amy – as I scrolled through the results and read the text messages that came in I quickly realized that this was very unlikely due to the fact that 1) I hadn’t been pumping so the likelihood of oversupply was very slim and 2) he was puking whether he latched for one minute or ten. As if the frustration of having a sick boob fed kid wasn’t enough I felt as though I wasn’t being listened to as a concerned parent.

My Mama Bear instincts went full force and I called the doctors office again explaining my concerns, where I was turned away again and told that as an infant the likelihood of him catching the virus was low due to the fact that he was breastfed. Immediately disheartened I reached out to my mom community and they sprang into action, from herniated belly buttons to pyloric stenosis (which ran in Big J’s family) we were exploring the options and I was planning a trip to an emergency pediatric facility near my house – Mama Bear was not going to let her baby cub suffer any longer it was time to take things into my own hands. As I got my boys ready to visit the emergency pediatrician my husband stepped in, he felt that our son needed to be seen by his own doctor and said that a diagnosis from her would make him feel better. So as we unpacked the boys we decided to wait for the morning and try again – Mama Bear was not happy. The following morning I placed another call to the pediatricians office explaining that at this point we had 4 days of projectile vomiting under our belt and that I would like to come in, again I was offered the same advice about overfeeding angering me to no end, I insisted on a visit at this point.

As soon as the nurse laid eyes on my baby she seemed to come up with a diagnosis of jaundice, here I pause to let you know that this poor child has been visually yellow since birth—I have an olive skin town and my husband is very tan, I didn’t bother to explain and patiently waited for the nurse practitioner to come in. As she did a full physical on my child I explained that 1) my husbands family had a history of pyloric stenosis and 2) my child’s belly button was quite frankly freaking me out she seemed confused about why I hadn’t been told he was herniated, she quickly checked for pyloric stenosis and asked about our recent health as a family – as soon as she heard we had had a stomach bug she seemed to become more at ease, she ordered a set of labs to ensure for the third time that all my son had was breastfeeding jaundice and to ensure there was nothing more – and as easy as that Mama Bear was turned off.

Now you may wonder why I am writing this, why I feel the need to share about how my kid was sick and how my doctors office handled it and here’s why as parents we are responsible for our children’s health and wellbeing, we are stewards of their bodies for them and more often than not we (moms especially) are labeled as dramatic and over analytical. Parents are often brushed to the side by medical professionals as if their only goal is to waste their time. I have heard so many stories about urgent cares and doctors half listening to a parent who is trying to explain why they felt the need to bring their son/daughter there and being rushed out the door as if they are an inconvenience, there is no need to be condescending towards a concerned parent. I promise you the last thing I want to be doing is explaining to a doctor that there is something wrong with my child and that I do not know what to do about it. I do not spend my days looking for things that are wrong and googling symptoms, I want to lead a normal life where I don’t have to worry about my kid but if something does pop up I want to know what it is and how to fix it, that is all I am asking. If I were a doctor or knew what was wrong and how to fix it I wouldn’t need you, I would take care of it myself. As my husband often likes to say “I must have missed that day of medical school. As a parent in this society all I am asking is that I be treated with dignity and respect and that I not be belittled due to concern about my child, don’t try to tell me that my kid puked because he was eating too much or because he’d been bounced around in a car too soon after he’d been fed – I am not an imbecile, take my concern seriously. I can assure you had my child been harmed by the blatant disregard I was met with on the phone my Mama Bear behavior would have gotten me banned from the office.

Have you had an experience where your concerns about your health or that of your child have been treated as if they were unreasonable or unfounded? What did you do?  


Surviving with Two

Today marks the four week and two day anniversary of becoming a parent for the second time — it also marks the four week anniversary of coming home to the chaos that is now my life. (I’ve now changed that sentence more than four times, always to add to the time.) As all my boys are sleeping I can’t help but recognize how lucky I am, blessed most would say, yet the difficulty in seeing this is very real at times. As I sit here typing I definitely remember a moment this morning and many moments through the last weeks where I have felt like an on demand milk machine and cleaning/cooking machine. My mom tribe is real and an aspect of my life I am oh so thankful for.

  • I have my lactation/baby specialist Amy — she’s got all the answers or knows where to get them when it comes to feeding and caring for my new addition.
  • My older kid relief Carissa— from picking him up at 2 am so I could go have a baby to grabbing him so I can go grocery shopping she is a life saver. She’s my library buddy, my park buddy, my general outings person.
  • My meal buddy Sadie—alternating cooking duties is more than a good idea it’s a mechanism for survival and when she’s not doing that she’s promising to go to the mall or out for ice cream with my kid. It’s a perk that she lives right across the street so I can just knock on her door.
  • My mom who has all the answers—literally, having six kids makes you an expert on the whole baby thing.
  • My Amber—she made a 4 hour drive each way to see my baby and hold him, she brought him onesies and had my first glass of wine with me. She is my rock at the most difficult times.
  • My therapist Kristynn—she might be halfway across the country but she most definitely answers the phone when it rings, even if she’s at lunch with her husband and son and listens to me vent all my frustrations about life.
  • Most of all my husband – he deals with the crazy that is me with lack of sleep, gives our baby J all the attention I am failing horribly at giving him, makes sure I have eaten, and has even given up his family for the last week and the next two so that they can visit with my family. He is patient, he is kind, he drives me up a wall, but he is my flavor of crazy, he is my brand of nonsense, and my kind of irresponsible. I don’t think I could love him anymore than I do.

These are the people who make it possible to be my best self, they are the people I vent to, the people who pretend to understand my crazy, the people who make sure I survive. They are my first line of defense against the outside world and they are the people I trust with the well-being of my family.They remind me that it doesn’t matter how messy my house is, how much laundry is piled up in the laundry room, or how empty my fridge is, what’s important is that I take a minute and enjoy it.

Whether it’s sneaking in a cuddle with my boys, showering, squeezing into a pair of my pre-baby jeans, or enjoying that ice cream I’ve been thinking about all day I have to take a second out of stacking dishes into the dishwasher, mopping the floors, and folding all the laundry to remember I am a human being. If you’re a new mom there are a couple of things you need to remember

  • You are enough.
  • You do enough. You just either pushed a human out of you or had all your insides on a table, you get to relax for a minute.
  • You are doing a good job, it’s probably hard to hear when everything looks like you haven’t touched it in days but you really are: if your kids are fed, your sheets are poo free, and you can kind of see the floor under all the toys and laundry you are kicking butt.
  • You need to take care of yourself: you need food and liquids, you need to shower, and you need to probably take the time to paint your toenails so you can stop staring at them in disgust. Go ahead ask your significant other, your best friend, that neighbor that keeps pestering you about play dates, or someone in your family to watch the kid (whether at your home or theirs) and take the time to make those things happen.
    • Pro tip grab some breakfast bars, nut and chocolate bars, chewy bars or whatever you like to eat the next time you are at the grocery store — these will help you get yourself motivated enough to cook something or will allow you to have some kind of nutrition when you just can’t fathom cooking.
  • You need help. Even if you think you’ve got it, it’s important to ask for help. Everyone has been there. Traversing the grocery store with a toddler is bad enough, doing it alone with a toddler and a newborn is not going to be any better. Ask someone to watch one of them or to come along with you for moral support, I promise it’s worth it.
  • Your baby is going to cry: it’s what babies do. I know it’s hard to listen to and I’m not saying to let him/her cry for very long but let them try to work it out. A whimper may just be the cost of him/her moving into a more comfortable position, a grunt maybe him/her working on a poo for you – give your baby a minute to resolve his/her own issue before rushing into the room and scooping him/her up this will keep you from constantly holding and soothing your baby and ensures that your baby starts learning how to soothe him/herself.
  • If something doesn’t look right / feel right call your doctor. They are used to it – if your stitch burns, your baby is a weird color, or you can’t use the bathroom you need to call your doctor.
  • Remember to appreciate your older child and spouse. It’s a change for everyone and so making time to spend with your older child is important so that he/she does not feel left out. Your spouse needs attention too – I know the new addition to your family.
  • Take a minute to be yourself, that means something different to everyone, for me it means taking a minute to type this post, for others it might mean watching a movie, reading a book, making a phone call, or any combination or variation of those things. Just be you – don’t lose that identity.

A Guide to Your Mom Friend who’s Having Another One

We’ve all been there – a friend who already has a kid and is about to have another and we have no idea how to help them or what to get them or how to make their life easier. I get it. We don’t mean to be shitty friends but we just honestly have no idea what to do, how much to do, really we have no idea what the proper gestures are and we don’t want to overstep some imaginary boundary. As I sit here 1 week from my due date I have decided to create a guide to your mom friend who’s having another one.

Offer to Take Her Kids so She Can Nap

Come up with any excuse to relieve her of her existing child(ren), she probably doesn’t want to part ways with him/her but she needs to. Be understanding that in her eyes these are the last couple of days where her only baby is her only baby and that she is probably very hesitant to waste any time she has with her only baby. With that being said she probably needs to. Show up and take the munchkin out for ice cream, to a splash pad, to a park — really anywhere. Make it seem like its gonna be a fun little date so she doesn’t pick up on the fact that you know she needs to rest.

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If she’s not having a baby shower / gender reveal / party for this kid its ok, she’s probably just too exhausted / apprehensive / has guilt tripped herself out of one. You are not obligated to buy her any gifts and she’s honestly not expecting any, but if you do the key is to be thoughtful. Buy things that are unique for this baby: get something monogrammed (a blanket, a hat, an outfit) the poor kid is probably going to live his/her life in hand-me-downs. Otherwise BUY DIAPERS, it doesn’t matter what size and if she has a preference you probably already know it. You don’t have to go crazy, if she’s lucky she saved all the stuff you bought her last time and is so thankful all over again for how amazing people were that she just wants to rewrite all the thank you cards.


Don’t show up unannounced. This is a big one. She is tired, she is feeling like some sort of beached whale that for some reason still needs to chase a small person who frankly does not give a damn about how much pain the chasing is causing. Her house is probably a disaster and she’s probably mortified by how it looks. Give her enough time to come up with the energy to at least get the clothes in the hamper. Also, don’t be a guest. If you are coming to check on her don’t expect to be waited on hand and foot, offer to help (or just do it)–she has enough people relying on her she doesn’t need you to be an added burden.

Check on Her

Call her, text her, SnapChat her, send her a letter…make sure she’s alive. It’s a big change. If she’s desperate enough she’ll vent to you or ask you for a favor.

Keep Inviting Her

She probably doesn’t want to sit at home and wallow about how swollen her feet are. She probably also doesn’t want to go skydiving. She probably would, however, love to come over for hot dogs and smores. Be considerate in what you are inviting her to but don’t leave her out.

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Feed Her

She is hungry, and she really doesn’t want to cook. Order a pizza, bring a casserole, throw something in a crockpot while you’re at her house, show up with a plan for a meal she will be eternally grateful. She will sing your praises and it might be the only thing she remembers you did her whole pregnancy.

Be Considerate

Offer to help, but if she says she’s got it then back away. She probably feels pretty helpless a lot of the time so if she says she can strap her kid in the car seat then back away slowly, let her do the strapping it might be her only victory for the day.

Compliment Her

Tell her she’s doing a good job. Whether it’s a cleaner than last time house, a new outfit, a good meal, a well dressed child — whatever it is just let her know she’s doing a good job somewhere cause heaven knows she needs the reassurance. I’m not telling you to flat out lie to her, just find one thing you can compliment her on and she’ll feel like a million bucks.

I hope you find this list helpful, thank you Amy for your very thoughtful additions! If there’s anything you think an expecting mom might be grateful for go ahead and add it in the comment section. As always like, comment, share, and follow us on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, or Pinterest! The best compliment you can give is letting us know you were here!

Defeat and it’s Lessons

Some days are better than others, some are worse–that is the way life works. I had a day that was one of the not so awesome days; it ended with an ugly cry in the shower. 37 weeks and 5 days pregnant is not the best time to discover thrombosed hemorrhoids, it is even worse when your husband is on a work trip and you also discover your baby is breech. I can proudly say I made it through the day with our normal schedule–pancakes, library, splash pad, lunch, movie time, nap time, dinner. I squeezed in a nap somewhere in there because my amazing sister-in-law is in town and was watching Baby J.
If you have never experienced hemorrhoids you are a lucky person, it feels like someone is stabbing me with every step, every breath, and every slight movement. Top that with all the lovely foot swelling, the internal movement that comes with being pregnant, and all the glory that comes with hormone changes and you have the amazement that was my day. As I stood in my shower I felt like a failure: Baby J had been a nightmare to deal with running around and reeking havoc as he pleased, Baby M couldn’t figure out which direction he was supposed to be facing, and my body was giving out — I couldn’t keep up. As I quickly finished my shower and tended to the wounds both internal and external I wished there was someone I could call or text, someone who would understand-I have friends but 12 AM is hardly the time to call them, my husband was in a different time zone attending some special dinner, and all I could manage was a good cry and it had to do.
If you have ever been pregnant I hope you can relate, there are few things that help you move on like a good cry. I pulled myself together walked out into the disaster that was my house and started cleaning, 12 AM is as good a time as any to deal with the destruction of the day and a clean house helps me think. I came to the realization that I had done pretty well: all of the kids had been fed, loved, cleaned, and put to bed; I hadn’t missed any of the things I had promised my nephews we would do, and I had worked through the pain as well as I could. I decided I needed to take a little time for myself so after typing half a post I decided to put a pin in it so that I did not overshare.
I realized how thankful I should be: my bills were paid; Baby J was happy, healthy, and asleep; my sister-in-law and her boys seemed to be having a good time; other than being stubborn, Baby M was healthy and cooking well; my husband was happy and feeling fulfilled at his meetings — why was I not feeling overjoyed? Which part of my life was lacking? As I sat there thinking I realized I was feeling a lack of contribution. I was not contributing to the family finances, the house constantly looked like I did nothing, my son was a nightmare who seemed to lack discipline…the list went on and on. I realized I was having trouble measuring my self-worth and that was a problem, a problem I feel a lot of people face. At work there is normally someone who validates you or some kind of metric you know that you are hitting but when your home and family is your work what is your metric, how do you know you’re doing it right? Your exhausted spouse has more things on their mind than they care to share, your kid isn’t about to tell you you’re doing it right, the judgemental looks you get in public for your three year olds behavior is not giving you any moral support where do you get that validation? And finally it dawned on me — the metric had to be yourself, had you done your best; in the moment had you done all you could do to make it work? If the answer was yes then you were all right. It’s not about how much money you did or didn’t bring home, not about how clean your house was, not about how well-behaved your child had been in public, it was about how hard you were trying. If getting up and working through the pain so you could make sure your son made story time was all you could manage before ordering a pizza and crashing to relieve some of the pain you were feeling then by golly that had to do. Eventually you would get there, and asking for help was key, you are worth helping.
As I sit here typing I know my house is a disaster (I need to vacuum, do laundry, clean the dishes, pick up toys), dinner is not made, my kid is watching Netflix in his beanbag chair, and I have no idea where to even start. I do know that he’s been fed, he is relatively clean, we read some books, and that he had fun playing with his friend today — he has not been sitting here watching TV all day and I am sure we made at least one lasting memory that he’ll tell his dad about as soon as he walks in the door. I also know that none of the things I haven’t done are going anywhere. My hungry husband will help me make dinner, the toys will be picked up, the vacuum will be run, and my washer and dryer honestly probably need a break. Life will go on and I will do it all over again tomorrow; hopefully Baby M has figured out that he’s supposed to face downward but that’s not something I can control at the moment. For now I need everyone to remember 1) you are enough 2) you do enough 3) as long as you tried your best then go ahead and be at peace with yourself. As always if you got anything out of this please share, like, follow, or leave a comment! I love hearing what you have to say!

Father’s Day Craft

We’re all looking for that special something to give daddy this Sunday, so after thinking for a bit I came up with a handprint gift that we could give daddy to put on his desk! The following directions will allow you to make two handprints.


  • 1/4 cup of flour
  • 1/8 cup of salt
  • 3.5 tablespoons of water
  • Rolling Pin
  • Knife
  • Oven
  • Parchment Paper/Cooking Spray
  • Bowl
  • Paint
  • Paint Brush
  • Sharpie


  1. Preheat oven to 300 degrees.
  2. Add the flour, salt, and water into a medium sized bowl – mix until they conform, if you are having trouble getting the materials to adhere go ahead and wet your hands with water and knead the materials together until dough like.
  3. Transfer dough to work surface knead for a minute or so and then roll the dough out, you want it to be about 1/8 inch thick – anything too much thicker than that will bubble and anything too much thinner will not hold the handprint. Once the dough is rolled out decide if you want a rectangle or a circle shaped final project.
  4. If you want a rectangle find something rectangular you can use to trace (I happen to have a fridge magnet that is the perfect size) if you want a circular one you can use the top of a bowl pressed down – use a knife to get clean edges. (If you wish to make an ornament/a hanging project use a straw to poke two holes side by side at the top of your project so you can push some ribbon or twine through them).
  5. Once you have your shape cut out transfer it to a baking sheet that has a) been sprayed with cooking spray or b) is lined with parchment paper.
  6. Have your child put their hand/foot on the dough and help them press down (if you have toddlers or younger children you may want to go back and ensure the indentations are deep enough with your pinky).
  7. Bake for 45 minutes.
    Baked Handprints
  8. Let your project cool until it is cool enough to carry – use a sharpie to outline your child’s handprint/footprint and then go ahead and paint whichever side of the line you wish. Use the sharpie to add a personal message for daddy!
  9. If you made an ornament go ahead and thread your ribbon/twine through the holes, if you are making a paperweight / desk plaque all you need is a little photo stand and you should be all set to go!

Let me know how daddy likes it! Also, these are perfect for grandparents and mothers day gifts!

Lessons From a Three Year Old

There are a lot of things we can learn from our children, crazy I know, but as I took a step back today I realized how mindful my son is and so I got to thinking. Today my three year old told his dad he had to get me flowers because he loved me, they had gone to the store to pick up some sausage for dinner and for some reason that made him think of the fact that he had to show me he loved me. Baby J is not the perfect child – he is easily irritated, lacks patience, and often is more stubborn than a cow at a stream on a hot summer day, but he has his moments.

As I sat there looking at the flowers I realized that maybe I should take a page out of his book, so I sat there and watched my child, not as a child but as another human being and over the course of a couple of hours here are the things that he reminded me of:

  1. Be Yourself: If he doesn’t like something he immediately lets you know, if he’s not happy he also lets you know. Basically if all the ducks are not in the right order he’s going to let you know. He knows what he wants, how he wants it, and when he wants it.
  2. Be Kind: When you do have his ducks lined up correctly he more than happily says thank you, he lets you know he loves you just because in addition to all the times he wants something he knows he probably can’t have. He tries to share whether it’s his snacks or his toys he will more than gladly plop down next to you and force you into playing. He is so excited about his new little brother and says he wants to share his room.
  3. Live in the Moment: Baby J has no interest in the clock, he works at his own pace and can’t be bothered by your schedule and appointments. If the PAW Patrol is on TV then good luck getting him to move. If something feels right then he’s going to try his hardest to do it.
  4. Enjoy the Small Things in Life: It doesn’t matter how much money is in the bank or how tired he is, as long as he has a full belly and a place to lay his head he seems pretty content. The child can literally sleep anywhere and is happy with running around or playing with his toys.
  5. Be Thankful: This is a hard one for him. It’s something we’ve been working on but it seems to be paying off, the little monkey I have says thank you whenever he happens to remember—especially if you’re giving him his apple juice.

Just Because Flowers

Today my three year old brought me flowers because he loved me. They are not the most alive flowers (he picked them out himself) and they are not the most extravagant flowers but they are the flowers I am most thankful for. Today I learned I am raising a mindful human being; one that will be kind, one that will show love, one that will be kind. Today I am the most thankful a mama can be.

The Role of Maturity

Maturity is a personality trait that is lost on a large portion of our population; it is the ability to deal with situations that are less than ideal in a manner that exemplifies your ability to think and act as a mature human being. As I sit at my desk and ponder the response of normal humans to their surroundings I am baffled by the lack of discipline, communication, and purpose that I am surrounded by. Not everyone gets along, not everyone has the ability to communicate, but when you do not even try to make yourself understood and then blame others for your unhappiness you are a special kind of person. When you think that you deserve something just because you are you I have difficulty regarding you as an adult.

My last week has been anything but pleasant. I have spent a lot of time wondering why, contemplating what actions I have taken to get the circumstances that I am currently faced with. As I sit here and ponder what I could have done differently, what behaviors I can maybe change in the future, how I can avoid similar disappointments I keep coming up blank. I am not saying that I am perfect by any means, I am seriously flawed, what I am saying is that the issues that have been presented to me are parts of my personality that I cannot readily change. 1) I am too aggressive—how does one change the manner in which they respond to crisis? Crisis management is one of the things I pride myself on, the ability to find solutions to immediate issues without the need to second guess or consult with others. 2) I am unapproachable –the reality that others have of me is not something I can readily change; I am not mean, I am just straightforward and to the point, if you mess up you’re going to hear about it, if you are not meeting standards than that is something I am going to expect you to correct. 3) I have an attitude – who doesn’t? The way in which people respond to different situations often leads others to assume they know them.

The conclusion that I have come to is that when someone who is “privileged”, i.e. they continually tell you that they don’t need this job and that they’re here because they are bored the issues that they present you with are often overstated. If you don’t need this job and have such deep issues with me why are you still here? Where is the motivation to be here? As a person I have come to understand that people are who they are, there is no way to please everyone but the important thing is to remain true to yourself (your work ethic, values, personality, etc.). When it comes to being a leader it is important to understand people—to help them be the best employee they can be. Often there is an issue of skill or will, and it is important to know which you can and cannot change. Sometimes, you just need to let people hang themselves, it’s just the reality of the world—you can’t and shouldn’t save everyone. What are some parts of your personality that others have a  hard time dealing with? How do you make yourself more approachable?

Keeping Your Mind While Being a Stay at Home Parent

The importance of nurturing our children is something that is intangible; their education, manners, work ethic, and personalities are shaped by the ways in which we interact with them. This, however, does not change the cringing feeling I get the hundredth time I hear “MAMA” and it makes me wonder just how much more of the never-ending tasks, endless cleaning, and constant nagging I can take. I am very new to the stay-at-home mom status, my journey started about a month ago; at eight months pregnant the journey has not been an easy one with my three year old especially since we moved away from our support system in Savannah and into the solitude of Phenix City. I have spent hours researching things to do and ways to make life easier and am excited to share some of the interesting things we’ve found.

Movie Night
Movie Night

Step 1: Create a Schedule

Baby J and I seem to have established a schedule that gets us out of the house and into society at least three times during the week. We absolutely LOVE our library and the librarians there! On Tuesdays we go to Movie Night (as long as it is age appropriate). Wednesdays we have Story Hour where we have stories read to us, dance, create a craft, and even enjoy a snack with some of our new friends. Fridays we go to Toddler Tales and enjoy books and dancing. The library has sprinkled in a number of fun activities throughout the summer that keep us occupied on other days but Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Fridays are normally a year round schedule for us! Libraries are a great resource for younger children who don’t necessarily have the motor skills or patience for some of the more interesting events (i.e. The Home Depot has free make and takes, AC Moore has $2 crafts – check your local stores to make sure they are participating). If your library isn’t as active as ours is, Barnes and Nobles often has Store Events that you can bring your children to (check your stores listings here).

Park Life

Step 2: The Great Outdoors

We are really lucky to have a number of parks and recreation centers that we have access to; since we live in Alabama they all have pools or splash pads, which makes it really convenient for parents to bring their kids. We try to go to a park or a pool at least once a week. We also have a sprinkler that we hook up on the weekends when we are just trying to relax. Baby J loves water so it keeps us occupied for a good amount of time. We make sure to bring plenty of liquids and snacks so we can spend as much time as possible enjoying the outdoors.

Meal Prep
Cooking for Beginners

Step 3: Have a Meal Plan

I suck at winging meals. I have come up with a system that allows me to have preset meals to pick from. If you need help coming up with your own system refer to The Battle of the Kitchen for some ideas on how to simplify your grocery shopping trips and ensure you’re getting the most bang for your buck. I normally pick what I’m going to cook the night before so that I can ensure that everything I need is thawed out and ready to go.

The Chores

Step 4: The Cleaning

While picking up toys is an endless task, laundry seems to never end, and the floors look like they haven’t been cleaned in weeks when you did them yesterday there needs to be moderation. Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday are normally the days I get most of my cleaning done since I am home in the mornings. I try to get the bathrooms cleaned on Mondays, the bedrooms and living room cleaned on Tuesdays, and keep Thursdays for some of the more tedious deep cleaning tasks that I notice throughout the week. I throw laundry in whenever I have a minute and aim to get the beds made first thing in the morning and the kitchen cleaned every night after I am through making dinner. I pick up toys as I go. My house is by no means perfect or as beautiful as it was when I didn’t have a three year old to chase around but I do get to spend some quality time with my Baby J. We spend time cuddling, watching TV, reading the books we picked up from the library, and enjoying our time with some of our new friends.


Step 5: The Weekends

I try to do all the grocery shopping on the weekends, bringing a three year old to the grocery store (no matter how organized you are) tends to be a nightmare. Its an added bonus when I can hand my husband half the list while I tackle the other half; other than that I try to keep my weekends open for fun time with my family. Whether we go to the farmers market, the flea market, or a park it’s a blast to be able to spend time together as a family. I use the weekends to catch up on whatever tasks I didn’t get done during the week.

The Fort
The Fort

Step 6: Have Fun

It’s important to be flexible, parenting can’t be scheduled. The importance of being there when your kids need you is something we need to keep in mind, the dishes will still be there after the tickle fight, dinner won’t taste too bad an hour after you’d originally planned, the laundry can live in the laundry room—your kids will only be kids for a short time.

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